by Ross Bishop
This is one story where the plot remains purposively obscured. At the same time everything that happens here has a purpose and an explanation, but to reveal it prematurely would be to diminish its effectiveness.
Here is what I believe: Your soul needed some development. This is true of all the people who come to earth. For whatever reason, you could not be just be given this. You had to own it. That way you would hold it in the deepest manner possible.
This sounds crazy, but the most powerful way for this to work was for you to start out believing the opposite of the truth about yourself. You start out believing you are unlovable or unworthy or whatever, which is completely preposterous, except that you start out believing it! And then over time and with a great deal of struggle, you would come to learn and accept the truth for yourself. I know, it is a crazy system, but that’s the way it works! And I am not trying to defend the Creator’s design, only explain it.
This belief in untruth would come to be the underlying theme of your existence here. It would feel to you like an incompleteness – unworthiness, unlovability, (a wound of some sort). And that would turn each life into an uphill battle. The answer to the dilemma was love, but that was very difficult for you to do, given how you felt about yourself.
And with each incarnation, your soul would bring in what was unfinished for you to address. In the “old” days, it was difficult to move beyond the consciousness of the society anyway, so that made things even more difficult.
And each time you came in, you would selected parents who would set you up perfectly around your issue. That meant that you would spend the majority of your life confronting your dilemma. The trade-off, is that you gave your parents exactly what they needed for their own growth and development.
Lifetime after lifetime you have been given the opportunity to change and accept the truth about yourself. But it’s been difficult because starting out believing the lie, you became caught up in the trap of believing the untruth. After all, it is easy when the world around you is only too happy to point out your flaws. The result was that you always came up against a wall of your own creation, and it was extremely difficult to get over it.
So, we come to today, and the pattern has repeated once again. You carry the wounds of generations, and it profoundly influences everything you do. Now most people go on this way, lifetime after lifetime. You can do that too, and I am convinced that you will eventually get it, but there is an easier way.
How do you investigate what you need to work on? You can do past life journeys and those will help clarify what the issue is, but for an even more direct link, create a working relationship with your inner child. He or she is directly connected to your “woundedness.” She may not be able to verbalize it, but it will have profoundly affected her behavior and attitudes, and the effect will be obvious.
Just to be clear, allow me to explain the role of the inner child in your life. She is the battery, the engine, that gives your life vitality. He or she is the source of your joy, your sadness, your anger, i.e. all of your emotions. Without a connection to you inner child, your life will be flaccid and lifeless.
He or she can give you fairly direct access to the issue you have been struggling with for lifetimes. All you need do is to sit quietly and ask her to join you. You may have some bridge building to do at first because after all, you have probably shut her out for 30+ years, because you didn’t like the burden she was carrying, and it was easier to ignore her.
So, once you get past the initial issues, listen carefully to the beliefs she holds. What has she come to believe about herself? (I find it best to write this stuff down. (Some people like to create images of what they see.)
Once you get clear on what the issue is, then you must decide for yourself what the truth is. It sounds like a simple thing. It is not. You’ve got what? Centuries of this stuff banging around, and you’re not likely to just quietly drop it away. These beliefs have tendrils that reach into every aspect of your being.
Complicating matters, your beliefs give you something to hide behind. After all, if you are a defective person, then you don’t have to show up for life! Doing that is just too risky for a defective person! You have an excuse to not really open your heart to your partner, friends or children.
Giving up your old beliefs means being willing to take risks. After all, what if they reject you? In truth, you’ll just go on, but we hide behind that fear. That’s where the self love comes in.
At first choose people and situations you feel safe with. Then expand out. And make sure to include her in your process.
There is an even deeper aspect to this whole experience. We shaman refer to it as “Healing The Shadow.” It’s a bit complicated to explain in this space, but I have written a whole book about it, interestingly enough called, Healing The Shadow! Now, if you just want to go for it directly without all the explanation, you can try a shamanic journey. Please accept as my gift, The Shamanic Journey CD. Just click here for the free download.
Namiste`
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